Is it normal to feel depressed and what something more? Feel happy all the time, live in a perfect world. Music kind of takes me away from my sadness, but it brings me back too. Listening to the broken heart songs, the loving songs, and having fun songs. It makes me sad I can’t have that really. This is why I want to be famous, or in a movie or sing or something. So I can live those moments. It’d be fun. For a month or two.
I’m stoked for a few things at the moment. Shall we go down the list?
- All Time Low Concert. April 16, 2011 @ The Warfield. *swoon*
-All Time Low - Dirty Work. (New album. No set date.)
-Testing, April 8, 2011 @ 9 AM. Not sure where, but I’m going to test for what school level I’m at-
-Then get a tutor, and build me up to the current grade I’m supposed to be in-
-Then go to my dream high school, Vintage High.
Needless to say, I am beyond excited. Now, to the depressing part of this blog thing.
I have been home schooled since seventh grade, and I’ve hated it ever since I started. I miss school more than anything, and it’s not the social life I miss. I miss getting an education, learning things. I’ve always loved school, even though I missed it a lot. Now that my medical problem is under control, I’m able to go back but I need massive tutoring, probably. Because well, I’m a dumbass, basically. I can’t wait to go back to school, and I hope to god my parents aren’t going to back out at the last minute, even if I do get the proper education. I would be devastated. It’s always been my dream, since about first grade, that I would go to Vintage High School. My dad attended it, and I’ve always loved it. Sure, I don’t know what the whole high school atmosphere is like, but I do know that people are having a good time. I’m growing up too fast, and I need to go back to school. I’m supposed to be out there having fun. Going to parties, dances, having fun and goofing off. I don’t want anything more than to go to high school, and I really hope I’m going to be able to experience it. Even if I can’t stay there long, I’m willing to do whatever it takes to get there. I miss my friends, being in a classroom, talking to teachers and plain learning about things I don’t have a clue about. Know what’s funny? I actually miss math the most. Funny, because that was my worst subject, and I hated my math teacher. But I’ve always loved math, and I hope I can get better at it so I can love it even more. I really pray to God that I will be able to go into school. I miss everything about it.
Today, it’s Chaz and I’s 2 year 1 month anniversary. Yes, we always celebrate months and I don’t think that’ll change. We like to celebrate it every month to just remind each other how much we love each other and how important our relationship is to each other. Let’s tell a story, shall we?
Chaz and I met on World of Warcraft. I was stalking him around Stormwind because his character name was Gavin, who at the time was my ex. So of course, being me, I thought it was him. We were flirting it up in general chat in (of all places.) Goldshire. He was on a different character so I had no idea who he was, needless to say when he logged on Gavin I was shocked, and I had no idea I was talking to this hunk who lived twenty minutes away from me. We hit it off from the start, and we planned to meet that Sunday. We met February 13th, 2009 and we were both dating different people, but he asked me to be his Valentine anyway. (I said yes of course<3) This kid has made my life a living hell, and a heaven as well. I don’t know where I’d be without him and I know I complain about him a lot, but he makes me the happiest girl in the world. He’s an amazing guy, and he knows me better than anyone. I don’t think I’d be happy with anyone else, and I couldn’t bear life without him. He’s my security blanket, my shoulder to cry on, my guardian angel. I love him with all my heart and that’s never going to change. He’s hilarious, down to earth, and all together amazing. Everyone loves him in my family, including my animals. (Except for my older brothers.) We don’t get along on things and don’t agree with one another at times, but that’s a relationship. I can’t tell you for sure if we’re going to last forever, but I have such a strong gut feeling that this guy is my soulmate. If we didn’t argue or didn’t disagree, we wouldn’t even be together. Studies say that a small argument everyday is beyond healthy for a relationship, which I agree with. Chaz and I tell each other anything and everything, we communicate and we are very open and honest with each other, and that’s why I love my relationship. If you think I’m gonna break up with him for good, you’re fuckin’ high to say that. (;
I have no idea how this site works, given this is my first time on it. Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Emily Carrillo. I’m fifteen years old, and I live in this shit hole town in California. Trust me, I’m out of here the moment I’m eighteen. I love my family dearly, they’re everything to me. I’ve been with this boy, Chaz, for two years now. We met on World of Warcraft, (yes, I play.) and I’ve never been happier with anyone in my life. I may bitch about him a lot but I love this kid. I have three brothers, and I hate two of them with a passion. I’m currently home schooled, and I’ve been since seventh grade. I hate it, and I miss regular school very much. Let’s go down the list of my favorites, shall we?
Favorite Color: Purple.
Favorite Movie: The Hangover, all disney classics.
Favorite Food: Mexican food. Villa Corona baby!
Favorite Electric Device thingy: I couldn’t bear life without my phone or iPod.
Favorite Weather: Pouring rain, with thunder and lightning. Nomnomnnomnom.
Favorite Band: All Time Low.
That’s really it I believe. I don’t have a lot of things to talk about at the moment. I have a best friend, and we’ve been besties since about first grade. I love her to absolute death, and I couldn’t imagine not having her here in my life. Her name is Rebecca, and she’s my sister at heart. <3
I have eight dogs, six cats, and a bird. Separate households, don’t worry, I’m not crazy. I love my animals so much, and I love animals in general. I cry if I see roadkill. I’m an emotional little girl, I’ll tell you that much.
Anyways, let’s wrap this up. Whoever wants to read this bullshit I’m gonna talk about endlessly, well… Follow me I guess? I don’t know how often I’m going to post on this thing. Whatever. Hopefully 4chan won’t fuck it up again.